Hmm...I wonder...

I wonder if you can recover from a broken heart. I realize that I'm only 19 and I haven't suffered very many heart breaks, but it feels like every time there's a new break, all of the old ones open up again. I know that this break up won't kill me but it feels like it might. Whenever he speaks to me and acts like he doesn't care, like I never meant anything to him, I feel like everything start falling apart. I hate playing these games. I hate wanting what I can't have. I hate being wanted by someone I can't want. I hate that I make that person feel the same way my ex makes me feel. I hate that this is all happening during the holidays. I hate feeling so lonely. I hate him for breaking us. I hate myself for taking it to the next level and destroying what was left of us. How do people go from being completely in love to hating each other? The sad thing is, we both still want each other.